Motivated!

Some might have lost faith in me.But tonight iam not talking to those.
Tonight iam talking to those who still believe.Tonight iam talking to those who still proudly stand at my corner.You have not given up on me and I will not give up on you.

Just a small version!

Just a small version..
Never i demanded materialisitic thing,
 never i asked you to sing,
 never i complained for long distance,
 never i irritated for signal hindrance,
 never i bothered you all day long,
 never i complained for your any wrong,
 but silently this pain increased,
 all my veins then it ceased...
Liking was there,
 For sometime mere,
 Thought we are happy,
 You were my trophy,
 Blissed i was,
 Suddenly fear crossed,
 You changed mind,
 You were no more kind,
 Everything was over,
 My heart then lowered,
 Couldn't believe then,
 Happened all when,
 You gave a lot pain,
 Still you i wanna gain,
 Hoping for a miracle,
 God will all now tackle.

Uncomfortable feelings!

There comes a time when you stop feeling anything. You
don't feel like smiling, even for the pictures, you don't even
cry for the ones you used to. The difference between sadness
and joy seems to fade.
It doesn't matter if some one likes you or hates you. It...
doesn't matter if you are doing well or not.
You are just uncomfortably numb..

Time demanded something else!

''THE TIME DEMANDED SOMETHING ELSE"
I wish we could've spent much more time together but the situations demanded something else. I still wonder the endless talks we did... your voice - the only thing that made my heart jumped and your touch gave me goosebumps of happiness. I still remember that time of 5.5 years I spent with you.
No, I don't love you today but the memories that project on my mind like a movie still love you somewhere, and Why won't they come.? We spent our c...hildhood together afterall.

Five-an-a-half years of studying together, playing together, long convos on phone calls, having chocolates together. I just desperately waited to have that one look of yours which made my heart skipped.No whatsapp, no facebook, only phone calls, text messages and real meetings we had!!!
With time we both changed and the time demanded something else for us, maybe something better. We both moved on but the time we spent together, our memories didn't!
Just friends we are with different partners today, living happily because the time demanded something else, Maybe something better for both of us!!!

Story of a breakup!

Story of a Breakup...
“I don’t want to be with you anymore.” She said.
There is a long silence after her this sentence.
 He hung up the phone and put it on flight mode. But somehow he wasn’t able to take the load suddenly. He changed the flight mode and decided to call her to have an explanation. After 15 minutes he gathered all the courage he was left with and dialled her number.
“Why you doing this?” He asked, as soon as she picked up the phone.
He hung up again when he saw that she was neglecting his questions.
His mind-set during and after the scene:
Finally she called me. She is so stupid, she thinks that she is disturbing me and thus doesn’t call me much now, I really miss her...
 She was sounding a little low. I asked a couple of times but she neglected the topic. Maybe I was thinking too much...
 She said she want breakup. My eyes were full of tears as soon as I heard this. But I didn’t let her feel that. My head got very heavy, I was not able to stand properly, I fall on the floor and in friction of seconds, I disconnected the phone and God knows why I put it on flight mode...
 I cried without any noise and thought of all the possibilities that could be the reason to her this decision. Sadly I found nothing and thus after some time I decided to call her again. I was not able to take the load suddenly...
 I enquired her action but she seemed very low to answer that properly. She was crying, I knew, I can figure that tremble in her voice. I didn’t console her because I was not in that state...
 I hung up again and this time there was no flight mode and no call backs just a silence and a lot of crying...
 I gave her time and thus waited for her call for very long. Days became weeks and weeks became months but she didn’t call me up. She didn’t break her promise of being friends and thus I was still on her Facebook friend list. I didn’t try to initiate any conversation. I left her alone and thus didn’t made things harder for her...
 But I am still waiting for her arrival...
Her mind-set during and after the scene:
I was waiting for the hour when I used to call him. He remains busy and thus I don’t annoy him much by continuous calling. I was very low since so many days...
 Things were not going well, I was not happy. He was not the reason for my sadness but I was habitual of his previous personality and not this busy one. I missed him. He was now not there in all the important phases of my life...
 We come in a relationship to be happy and not to cry for nothing substantial. I was taking things to next level; I was all set to change my path. I needed separation. I didn’t want to hate him by being in this not so great relationship for some more time and I was sure to do that because things were now not easy to handle...
 When I said what I thought, he broke into tears. There was no voice, but I could sense his silence. I wanted to say that I love him but I had to be strong. I didn’t want to trouble him more and also myself...
 He hung up. I tried to call him again but his phone was off. He was hurt. I am very bad. I cried endlessly. I was crying very hard. My face was full of tears, and then I got his call.
 He asked me the reason. I didn’t want to shower allegations and complaints on him. After all, it’s not his fault; I was not able to remove the previous image of him, the one of a mad and caring lover...
 I tried to neglect his questions. He didn’t force me much. I was crying very hard but didn’t show that in my voice. I didn’t want to make him restless. He hung up again. I didn’t sleep that night...
 We promised after being in a relation that we will never quit our friendship, I kept that promise and with a very heavy heart saw him online daily. I kept his chat box open every time in a hope that he might text. I hurted him and thus I didn’t bothered him much by taking any initiative for a conversation...
 I wait for his call or text daily, in a hope that someday I might get lucky to talk to my love again. I don’t have enough courage to go back to him thus I am waiting for his arrival someday...

A love letter!

A Love Letter:
Samiksha was missing him like hell from so many days but today her feelings made her really high. She was not able to take the load and as situations doesn’t allow them to be together, to share their view point’s, thus she decided to write down her feelings and destroy the page afterwards and thought that she will also click a photograph of it and will keep it as the souvenir of this day, where she missed him like never before...

Dear,
Don’t kill me after reading dear, I don’t wanted to be formal but today the sentiments are overflowing and you know love makes you very elegant. It’s 11.30 and I am not able to even blink my eyes. You know sweetheart I was missing you so much today. The extent of missing crossed every limit. I saw people engaged with their loved ones either on text or call or in person, but what about us. You just reside in my memories now. I know every relation is not the same and every phase has to be experienced by the individuals, but you know something I can overcome every pain but the remorse of being away from you is unmanageable. I know that I am exaggerating stuff but what to do I am just not in control. You know something I don’t even know what I am writing. Maybe it’s all crappy but at least I will lessen my load. I wrote a lot before addressing you specifically like this but it didn’t helped anyhow; let’s see if this can help me...
You know the time when you texted as soon as the clock showed 10. Whole night was carried with subtlety of your charm. I never felt like talking to anybody else while being engaged with you. It felt so enough and I felt so complete. But I am so unlucky to let go the moments I spent with you. I deleted those texts in trance. I am so sorry, not for you, but for that part of my soul who is missing you so badly. Today I understood the importance of having stills of each other. I never thought that some of your blurred pictures can soothe my heart so much. I am just imagining what joy my heart would experience if I had a chance to stare at a picture which had both of us. Ahhh!! What a nice thing to imagine na. Sorry for making this page messy, the ink spreads with the tears, I should have remembered that...
I am not able to stop myself from writing ahead but I think I should, or the redness of my eyes will become the hot topic amongst my friends to tease me. You know I ignored some of my friends too today, they might be hurt, all because of you, why you away ha...
P.S. – You know your favourite song is running in the background, it makes me feel the presence of vacuum even more, but I love all this... Muuaaahhh... Love you... And yes, miss you, a lot, lot, lot, lot more then you can even think...
____
Samiksha clicked the picture, as she thought, moved it to the most isolated corner of her phone, stared at his photos and slightly moved her hand over his forehead and took a deep breath. She thought that she will tear the paper as decided before but somehow she was not able to do the same. She tried many a times but she was surely not that courageous to damage her love. They were her sentiments, which she carved with all the pain she was bearing. She thus decided that she will not damage the first souvenir of her not so mesmerizing story. She thus folded that paper and kept it in the inner core of her pillow so that she can calm her mind down every night...

Confession by a mother

Dear princess,

I know i am very strict with you. I know you sometimes get envy from your cousin
brothers and its par obvious too, but dear, you know something, the precious stones are always under special care and attention. I know i utter words which you find very negative in your terms but they are just to tease you dear, i never mean anything like that, i just say them because i know that you will protes test for the right and will put up nice points against my verdict which reflects your maturity. I know i quite often say that i needed a son but i never said that i didn’t needed you. My life got complete to have a subtle daughter like you. I know i put few restrictions though they are less then others but still they are in your life but trust me sweetheart they are for your own good. Nature has made this diversity among two genders and we people are unable to lower it down anyhow. You also know, that weird and bad eye that follows your body in public, i know you are mature enough to handle these things but that fear remains intact and you too know that. Those eyes disturb you every time and trust me the restrictions are not for you but for the harm that can reach you. Daughters are not bad, neither i am unhappy to have you , just the environment scares me, your protection scares me, your self respect scares me. You are like that diamond which i want to show off to gather some pride but only in a leap year or so. Sorry for messing up your life with so many questions but i am helpless. Please pardon my this sin, and if you cant then just wait till you get a baby girl in your , then i am sure that my apology would be accepted...

With Love..
Your Maa... :)

TERRORISM-- A CURSE TO HUMANITY

The word TERRORISM is a big terror in itself. It is a big fear rather a a very big disease which affects the lives of millions of innocents. It spreads like flu and never ends. It creates hatred in the mind of the people for each other and ultimately leads to the world of destruction. Terrorism is the monster of violence. It is spreading in the world as butter gets spreads over the bread. Seems funny, but sadly very true. Thus, making the roots of our country very weak and ill. Terrorism in India is primarily attributable some religious communities and Naxalite radical movements. The regions with long term terrorist activities today are Jammu and Kashmir, Mumbai and the Central India. No one is there upon whom we can trust in today’s life. Everyone loves himself and one’s life is very precious for oneself but none cares for the same for the others. Where is our country moving…Is this the same country where the roots of love used to sow and the fruits of love and respect for everyone were received. Gone are the days when a neighbour even used to die for saving the life of the other. What’s happening now a days..A brother kills the other for money or any kind of revenge. Is revenge so big or are we becoming so CHEAP that we are getting motivated and encouraged to kill each other. Why is hatred growing in us for our neighbour (NEIGHBOUR COUNTRIES) brothers. Terrorists were not born but made in the name of religion. None of the religion preaches terrorism nor ask the followers to take the lives of other people but preached by wrong leaders.

Is this the same INDIA where great people like MAHATMA GANDHI, SUBHASH CHANDRA BOSE were born???? They fought for the country for making a better nation.. a better future. If today they were alive, they would rather like to die than seeing our country in such a bitter condition.

How much hatred is filled in our minds for others. Hating anyone is so easy it can do nothing except devastation but rather loving and forgiving really makes a difference. We are surely made for creating difference not for shedding blood for nothing. Millions of innocents get punished and lose their lives for doing nothing. Fight for the good. yes of course against the bad, if you really want to fight ,,then fight against corruption, raise your voice against the wrongs.

Seven years passed:Still city feels the same Scars of terrorist attack...

Watched PHANTOM last night and thought to write something regarding that.

There Is a True Saying That:
"Time Flies",
 well that's really true!

26 November 2008...where we all were? Of course Busy in our lives, in our Hectic Schedule.
When we were busy eating Burger at McD or may be were in CCD with our love ones, 10 illiterate men, came to Mumbai with guns and explosive to kill as much as lives they can.
Trained in best camps with best terrorist leaders.
They came, They shot the crowd openly, They Hijacked a 5 Star hotel with no Negotiation.
Aim was to kill more and more.
In our own Country! In our own home! We were Banging like a Band.
10 Men Rotate the 8 crore people on their fingers, it was not less than a Surgical Strike.
Still we fought back till the end.
After 3 Days and 3 Nights,166 people were killed and plenty of them were injured.
Some Countries were laughing! Some were Celebrating! Some were showing sympathy!
The home of Bollywood has came over the tragedy but was that the end?

Now The Broken Mirrors are changed..The Building got Reconstruct
The Physical Damage was recover but the mental scars can never be...
It can be recover only by killing all the Masterminds behind that.
After the attack, Police Commissioner of Mumbai launched some new program for the officers, so that they can be fit and healthy again.
They made a "FORCE ONE" team, to get prepared in case of any attack or threat in future.

Sometimes I feel they got their hold on our weak spots...
They knew India can't do anything! All that Indian government can do is to sit silently at the time of action and then giving sympathy for the people reaction.

Somewhat movie is about the same, Saif Ali khan killed all the master minds one by one
and at the end he killed ZAKUIR REHMAN LAKHVI and HAFIZ SAEED.
I hope the day will come Soonest the Soon when all the Masterminds behind this brutal act will get Hanged or killed by a Surgical or Covert Operation
If we can learn the Culture Trend or Technology from the Native Countries then why not this.?
Lets take a step to protect our Country and people.
Those Who can't understand the peace let's make a War.
Because If we sit quite
then again Something like that will Happen.
Make sure that this would never repeat again and if it does... then we should be enough prepaid to fight.
Short and Simple: Cut the roots be stern and Retort.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME.....

My pain has cut deep into my heart

I just can't seem to get a fresh start!

My guilt has seeped into my mind

There is nothing I can do to unwind!

My regret has grown on the double

For ruining a day which is so special!

My sorrow has reached its ultimate peak

Your forgiveness is now all that I seek!

I know you are super angry

I know you are sad

All because of me..

I know you are disappointed

I know you feel let down

I know that I am the reason for all your frown..

But I promise to replace your scowl with a smile

I will make up to you even though it will take a while..

I have been crying ever since

My life has come to an end

Come to me sweetheart..Give me a loving hug

I want to cuddle with you

In your arms..I want to be snug!

I am truly sorry,I will never do this again

You have suffered enough

I don't want to cause more pain!

You have a good chance, to make me dance.

Since I want to spend my life with you..Your wish is my command

I will do as you demand

But only on one condition..

That you will be the one to forgive me and say

Everything between us is now OK!!!!!!